10 years ago I...

hmm I was 15, shy, quiet, subservient and repressed hahaaha!!! I went to latin high school , met a bunch of asso future friends, and spent more time socializin' and passin notes then conjugatin' my fuckin' verbs and recitin' stupid lines from the iliad by heart. I was also in  3 choirs...GEEK!!!

also had my first bfriend shortly afterwards...jarred. he was a good kid and did everythin' for me. I pushed him away and needed space and fuckin' fucked everythin' up. sometimes i wonder where is he and how he's doin' now. I'm such a different person from then.

5 years ago I... was @ emerson, studied film, didn't know what I wanted to really do but didn't really care, college was one big blur and stayin' late @ school usin' fuckin' macs to edit my work!..also in conjuction with everythin' else,  many of u know, i liked this asso in ny (whom i TRAVELLED down to see all the time) which, of course,  turned out to be a disaster ANYWAYS  and left me hurt and scarred for a awhile before I found my fuckin' atittude...HAHHAHA so THANK u, asso. u only made me STRONGER!

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1 year ago I... got the most creative job i could at the mfa, hated it then, still hate it now, but have gained respect from my co-workers and upper management so then can kiss my yellow asian ass when I leave!!!

and also was still with dom and for once, feelin' like the relationship felt RIGHT to me and it was nice to not always have to wonder and ask myself if this was goin' to hurt me again.

Yesterday I...

...was tired as fuck, but had a blast chillin' with the twins and their entourage <3

 Tomorrow I...am fuckin' sleepin in, cleanin' my room, puttin' my shit together for job interview number 2 and watchin' "mad hot ballroom"...and eat ramen noodles 'cause im asian and that's all we do.

5 snacks I enjoy...

kit kats bars, smartfood popcorn, mozzerella cheese sticks, wheat bagels, veggie chips

5 songs I know all the words to...

anythin' salt n pepa..."i gottaaaaa man", "shoopppp", "baby got back", most of whitney houston's lame ass love songs before she was fucked up, and anythin' by elvis. <3 <3

5 things I would do with 100 million dollars...

pay off student loans of course, pay for my bro's college tuition, take care of my parents and send them on dope vacations of their dreams, buy dom all the hip hop records his heart desires, ahahaha, and take all my friends out and just chill...

5 places I would run away to...

 new york (my first luv), italy, malaysia, europe in general, and fuckin' ANY tropical paradise...tahiti, aruba, virgin islands, whatever!

5 things I would never wear...

SPANDEX..OMG don't even get me fuckin' started!, UGGS, (get the fuck over it already), anythin' remotely preppy or as i call it: "white girl fashion", ironically, COACH! hahaha, and anythin' typical and not original in some way.

   5 favorite TV shows...

felicity, wonder years (the best ever), law and order anythin, most haunted, and anythin' on the style network 'cause im hooked.

5 bad habits...

       laziness, procrastination, non-motivation, self blaming, and yelling and screamin' when I don't get my fuckin' way, because it's my god given right...haahhaa

5 biggest joys...

REAL  friends that make me whole, people who are GENUINE, FAMILY for always supportin' me even though I push them away at times...my lil bro for just bein' the dope lil bro that he is..., findin' a boy like dom that I can be myself with and who gets along with all my friends, expandin' my knowledge artistically and musically, and chinese  food, because it's comfort food when ur depressed.

5 fictional characters I would date...

Ben Covington from felicity...YES I know he's an asso, and NOEL is more of a non-asso, but girls always like the assos and scott speedman is HOT.  There's just somethin' about ben bein' an idiot in distress that really turns me on hahahaha!

micheal vartan in "never been kissed" he is sooo hot and sooooo cute in that movie...

ryan phillipe in "cruel intentions" OK..the twins know this and even fuckin SCOTT knows this..all i have to say is the scene when he comes up the elevator and runs after reese witherspoon in that fuckin' hot black peacoat with the purple lining. HOW hot was that?!!!

leo in "romeo n juliet" i know some people don't like him, but he was my fave in that version of the movie...soo young, so cute, so poetic....scene when u first see him sittin' on the stage of  a run down theater in sunrise in a prada suit and recitin' "oh brawling night..." all love lorn was IT for me.

james dean in "rebel without a cause" ..do i even have to explain this one?! he was just beautiful, yet dangerous.